This is so wrong 

Im so unhappy with my self right now i can only blame my self for how i feel i left a job thinking i was going to a better job to only found out i was going to take my dream job to now not have gas the insurance or the money to pay my bills and fathers day anf my sons birthday is all coming up and i have nothing to gibe anyone i feel so down im not a quitter im worse im a loser i hate me so much right now i should of could of man what the fuck ever im so over my fucked up life im dont want to die i just want peace and a job that is worth my time and some where i can be me at the same time do my work and go home like the. Saying you know feeld like i never worked a day in my life when i wonder why we there is only one answer why not me 


I want money

Is it a crime to find something and just stick with it man im telling you i need to and want to find that one job that puts me where i want to be financially im so tried of switching jobs and going from this one to that one but what i love most is my drive to find some that i will be home for my kids and makeing money to finally know what the word vacation means i meab i want to be happy you only die once that that a good man told me and it makes sense we live everyday so why noy make the best of it just keep me in prayer that i will be strong and patient and soon or later i will land that awesome job amen to that

Its so gorgeous out 

Im praying all are enjoying this awesome sunny day is so very nice out letssss play ball the phillies are in full effect i pray for a great year. Im just so thankful for my family and friends and my job i never want to take these things for granted. Again im in love with Lashonda and heyyyyy after that who cares what think